Alphabets and Words Dance Inside my Head

we were so free
we were just being you and me

like two little kids that play around under the rain
you and i both...

with no burden
with no thought
that when the rain stop
it will all comes to and end

go back to where you belong
our time is up

i shall grasp the memories with me
all that's left
all that i have in my solitude

just go and don't turn back
i'm gonna be ok
becoz i know how it would end from the very first day

-AHK-

Pray for him
Sure you can
Will it do any good?
Might be not

Right now, he probably hates you down to his core
But he'll be sober one day
And pursuit life
Just like before

He'll be much more stronger
In his solitude he can contemplate
See life in a slightly different perspective
And became a man that he should've been

No worries my dear
You're just a lesson that he had to learn

Will he ever forgive you?
Surely he will
The only thing he need right now is time
Time to heal

-AHK-

i finally see your grin
you're nothing for me but a sin

just go away and fly
don't even bother to say goodbye

i can't believe that i've been fooled by your eyes
all those sweetness were just lies

i still hope that you're happy though
i'm not strong enough to hate you nor to be your foe

i've played a game
got carried away
and now i'm lost

that game is called love

-AHK-

i cut myself open and watch it bleed

each beat of my heart made it shed even more
continuously painful it was until no pain i can sore

i was caught up in the moment of both joy and agony
it had me tranquilized so strong like a soothing melody

as i thought i was holding at peace
instead i drag myself falling into an abyss

dead but not departed, alive but not living
now i'm left with this dreadful wounds
try to close my eyes as i'm slowly dying

-AHK-

if this was a fairytale than he would've take you with him so that both of you can fly to the sky

if this was a play than he would've come to you that day and take you away

if this was a novel than everyone would've been smiling in the end

if this was a dream than you're the most beautiful nightmare he had ever spent

but this is life

and all he had left for you is his prayers and wishes
may happines be with you always

-AHK-

now that you finally found the one...

keep this in mind and may it never fallen into oblivion

gazed on her like she's the last thing that you will ever see

caress her as if her skin were made of cotton candy

fight for her with every brawn in you because you know she's worth it

stay beside her through her worst, just like an oak tree that firmly stand on the ground even in the worst drought

do it right, play it right, keep her tight, and never gave up on her no matter what

-AHK-


* this note is dedicated to my friend *

When i'm walking all by myself
Sometimes I stray upon the false path
it's dark and I can't see a thing bcoz seldomly there's not even a single light

I tried to ask direction to people that I meet but all of them just point to different directions

I then bought a compass but it just spins around like mad

Finally I bought a smart gps, with an automatic navigation and neat sounds...
But all it did was beep beep and beep
And i'm the one that's being mad this time so I just throw that stupid thing away

And then I realized
I was asking directions to the wrong place
I should've come to God

-AHK-

Look up at the sky tonight
Just look at both of them

Don't they look so pretty
Together they can blend in harmony

The star and the moon

They shine for each other
So peaceful as if they were longing to be together

But they will never be

The only thing that brought them is the night
The darkness were built so they can glare their light
It was the only thing that keep them unite

That is how God has made it written for both of them
So they can stay as a couple by the distance beyond

Built in pair but never meant to be as one

Maybe that's how its been written for you and i

-AHK-

no longer i can walk beside you and be your guardian
because every step that i took with you made me more vulnerable every single day
you've reach deep inside within me
deep inside more than anyone ever did

the fear of loosing you made me had to leave
for i have tried to be the best that i could
but right now there's nothing that i can give

may God shall send you it's best guardian
that could always make you smile and wipe your sorrow
that would happily listen to every little complaints that you make each day

right now there is so many things for me
that i have to deal
that i have to face
that i have to learn

if one day we meet again
i hope that you've found your happiness and so do i

goodbye.

-AHK-

i know this moment will come
this is why i always try to be not too close to you
but i can't

your awkward,clumsy,annoying attitude
i have become used to
your kindness, you cheerful, your smile, your eyes
has made me lost within you

i will try to stay away from you
i will try to forget about you
i could only try

for i have no control over my heart
it has a mind of it's own
it wants what it wants

what it wants is you

-AHK-

There’s a hollow inside my head
Something that I just can’t get over at

trying to find a place in this transitory life
Even though it’s all blurry for my eyes

May the light be upon me and guide my path
I shall not forsake all that I had carried on my back

Even though i may decay
And I might Morph into a slay

For I shall struggle and obviate everything that inhibit my lanes
Up until now I’m still finding a place to rest my soul

-AHK-

i am a bleeding angel
i wonder will this pain ever end
i hear sorrow from every heart near me
i see sadness from everyone around me
i want to heal their pain and enlighten their sore

i am a bleeding angel
i pretend to be fearless and forceful
i stand firmly against billow as the reef at the seal front
i feel every pain that they feel
i touch their skin and their sickness becomes real
i worry if i will forsake and loose them for good
i cry when they are hurt for i fear if everything that i have done will not do as it should

i am a bleeding angel
i need someone to heal these wounds
i don't know if i would be able to hold on any longer
i fear if one day i will alter in to a demon just so the pain would numb

i am a bleeding angel
i realize that this is all made to forged me to far the better
i know that the Lord shall guide every stride that i take

i am a bleeding angel

-AHK-