Alphabets and Words Dance Inside my Head

the two of them looks like the happiest people on earth :)

Suatu saat dg bercanda saya pernah berkata pada sang pria "gak ada dia koq lu brantakan gini coy"
Dan sang pria menjawab "klo gak ada dia kayaknya gw gak bisa hidup men"

Pada suatu malam saya chating dengan sang wanita dan dia menulis "Lucky im in love with ur frend ris... He treat me like i am princess... :-) ..dgn sgla keterbatasannya sll brusaha bahagiain gw.. Gw brsyukur bgt.."

I am happy for both of them... And I enjoy watching them both

Entah apa yg disebut, yg terjalin diantara mereka, sayang... Cinta... Kebahagiaan... Entah apa namanya, terserah apa namanya... Dengan melihat mereka saja saya turut menjadi bahagia

apa yg mereka berdua sedang rasakan, mungkin saya pernah merasakan, mungkin jg yg saya pernah rasakan hanyalah kebohongan... Apapun itu dulu, kini saya sudah tidak merasa sakit karenanya

Apakah saya akan bisa merasakan apa yg saat ini mereka berdua rasakan?

Insya allah, Tentu saja

*btw i'm really really proud with my friend a.k.a mr.3, you're doing a great job kiddo keep it that way*

hey you
once i knew

the curly hair girl with slanting eyes
with shrill tone that crawls to my bone

yeah you...

the girl that stole my heart
then bash it to the floor
leaving it traumatized and sore
then seconds later said sorry
just like it never happened before

no...
i'm not here to hate
nor to curse
nor to despise
nor to unleash my fury

i'm just here to admit

that i'm wounded
that you've hurt me
and that i've hated you
so much
very much

that i curse and despise
that you've succeeded
to pour the tears out of my eyes

that i'm no angel
and i'm no superman

i've been hurt
not by a punch
not by kicks
not by fists

but by a smile
from a girl
that girl is you

and for your sorry
i've forgive you

-AHK-


*had a little chat with her this afternoon on ym and find out that she's currently pregnant,wish all the best for you Wit

When i'm gone beyond distance
Walk into the darkness
And lost within silence

Thy art the place where I could always go back
Never turn away no matter how filty I turned into

Though sometimes thy I despise when i'm down
But not even once thy forsake me
Thy always show me the light to the path
That thy belongs to

Hear my beseech my lord the all mighty

I am a sinner
So forgive my sin
Thou art most merciful

I am a fool
So embrace me with thy knowledge
Thou who art perfect in knowledge and wisdom

I am weak
So shelter me with thy strength
Thou art the exalted in might

Thou art the proprietor of perfection

Thou I worship
Thou I beseech
And thou I return

-AHK-

*not originally mine, couple of sentences were taken from the english translation of Al-Quran

She's the only thing that can make me high
like a drug that i'm addicted to

a custom made morphine that once run through my vein

so tender yet so powerful
she easily stole all my senses
burn me from within and made me restless

drove me out of reality
when i'm on top of my sanity

and just when i began to dream of her
she kill me silently in my sleep

-AHK-

How can i ever fall again
now that i've reached the bottom of life

because it's broken
like splinters
and turn into dust

it will never be the same
not after what's been done

i tried to forgive
and i tried to forget
convinced myself that everything is alright

but it's a quasi that i acted upon

i tried to hold on
but it hurt so much
and took my conscious away

because it's broken
like splinters
and now i can't feel anything

-AHK-

setelah merasa cukup muak dengan kemalasan dan keengganan akhirnya kmarin saya mulai mengerjakan skripsi saya

Alhamdulillah Bab I sudah selesai

jujur saja itu bukan hasil buah pikiran saya
gabungan dari dua buah skripsi, sebuah thesis, dan sebuah buku...
menghasilkan Bab I berjudul Pendahuluan dan setebal 7 halaman

lumayanlah... daripada tidak sama sekali

hari ini juga saya usahakan untuk meluangkan waktu untuk mengerjakan skripsi
jadi pas jam makan siang saya mengunjungi perpustakaan LIPI yang kebetulan hanya berjarak dua gedung perkantoran dari kantor saya

mulai2 mencari judul yang senada dengan skripsi saya
skripsi saya membahas mengenai analisa efisiensi pasar modal di Indonesia...

saya mendapatkan beberapa referensi yang kesemuanya adalah thesis S2... ada yg dari jaman batu tahun 1996 dan yang terbaru tahun 2005, yang terbaru ini sebenarnya cukup menarik, jadi topik yang dibahas lebih spesifik untuk saham2 yang termasuk dalam Jakarta Islamic Index

akhirnya dari beberapa literatur referensi tadi saya mendapatkan beberapa rujukan yang bisa digunakan pada Bab II... yah semoga bisa selesai secepatnya